Thursday, October 21, 2010 ; 5:16 AM {!♥}
finally got my EOY exam results ..
i don't think i did good enough , haish .
especially my english , and maths i think .
surely gonna get it from my mum =(
life's getting more boring i guess , most of the time at home ,, need to takecare of all my adik except for the last one .
cause she now IN HOSPITAL !! ='(
it's been a few days now , almost one week . hmm , i'm missing her right now .
and sometimes i even cry thinking of her and can't sleep .
it's sad tt my little sister have RSV (repiratory syndrome virus)
first my mum had to go through operation to take her out , now this .
i really pray tt she can go home as soon as possible .
it's really sad when i visit her yesterday .
especially when the nurse puts in a long tube to suck out the lender(idk how to spell)
she's crying all the way when the nurse was putting in the tube and all .
i could feel the pain she's gg through . and she's still a baby .
but had gone through alot of pain ='(
it's such a pity , hope she get well soon so tt i can be with her the whole day , and i can also takecare of her .
REALLY MISSING HER RIGHT NOW !!! urgh !
hope she gets enough sleep and doesn't cry all the time , and giving my mum a hard time too .
wish i could stay there and help , but this stupid school day is spoiling it .
i just can't not go to school right ? haish .
thinking of my mum and sister is the sadest thing .
going to the next topic , last tuesday , 19 october .
i just went for a class outing .
it was quite fun too , and the view there is great . i love it , but , sadly , i don't have any camera to take alot of pics .
if wanna use phone like a bit boring .. hehs ~
and played frisbee passing with shahril , arthen , joshua .
then ariff join in and kamilah and then sharwin .
it was kinda fun cause arthen is always making his funny and nonsense business .
then go to sea and play monkey in the sea ..
BLABLABLA ~
go on top of the , idk , and talk with lenny so much stuffs .
then it was the first time i'm very close with her this year , and she's a very easy-going person and kind too . we talked about so much stuffs , it's kinda fun talking to her .
then we went to bathe and got ready .
we were the 2nd last person to bathe , and seri and chin hui was the ones to get ready first .
cause i was a bit slow packing up my things , so lenny waited for me .
when we went back , the trailer , if i'm not mistaken , came .
but we were still walking , so we missed it .
and the rest scolded us but not exactly scold , idk how to explain .
then while waiting for another one , we took a picture together .
BLABLABLA ~
we went to vivo city to eat and planned to watch movie .
but then u know , the cinema at vivo was very expensive , so we went to CWP .
reached there , went eating .
me and lenny had no space to seat so we kinda seat far apart from them .
and continue talking about some funny stuff .
i still remember when i watched coffin ~
then i told her , while watching tt movie with my primary school friends ,
i plug in my ear piece and listen to a song cause the sound effect was too loud .
and i seriously hate the sound effects(SE) , when it comes to a horror movie .
then , while listening to a song then , halfway through the movie ,
they could hear it so i had to stop the music and just close my ears cause
and i was scared when the ghost was about to appear plus the SE .
i closed my ears all the way and continue watching .
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee `
then my friends were laughing at me when they see me doing tt pfft .
so the paisey ,
AFTER TELLING HER THE FULL STORY , and also finished eating ,
they collected the money for the movie , CHILD'S EYE .
i was VERY SCARED this time round .
because of the scary SE .
and u know what i did throughout the whole movie ?
i covered my ears but got let my hands down for a while , a few times .
some parts of the movie was shocking . and lenny got shouted a few times .
but i shouted once , hehee ;DD
cover eyes with my one of my home clothes , and could smell three different things on my shirt ,
first one was softlan , second compact powder smell and third perfume .
pfft , ridiculous rite ?
haish , i hated the movie cause i'm just scared !
nyahahaa , pathetic rite ?!!
i know =DD
i can be a scaredy cat sometimes .
next , i heard tt my class , 2E , wants to make a farewell party for joshua ?
or is it a birthday party for november babies ?
i'm not sure . and they're gonna held it at sentosa , pahlawan beach , again .
but this time , they have organised some interesting games ,
like , AMAZING RACE , TRUE OR DARE , SOCCER , FRISBEE , WATER BOMB !!
hope this party is more adventerous and fun then the last time .
and they have done the schedule , later only have to follow it .
not like last tuesday , 19 october .
okaay luh . gotta go now .
BYE !! ~
Wednesday, August 25, 2010 ; 5:17 AM {!♥}
hello ppl !
long time didn't update ...
hmm ,, really wishlife was like before ,, where fie still hates me but still treats me like her sister .
now whenever we meet , i doesn't feel comfortable at all .
since she's still mad at me and doesn't wanna talk to me .
life's more fun before this . my after life really sucks a lot cause i lose the one i'm very close with .
and i would always turn to her whenever i have any problem ..
but now ,, she doesn't even want to look at me after tt incident , she's been avoiding me a lot .
haish ,, when would we be okaay again , and be like last time again ?
wish i hadn't say out some things ..
she's always there for me even when i'm down , she try to cheer me up .
but now ,, i'm most of the time lonely .
she's always with bella ..
tt time when we had a so called gathering for buke ,
i was left alone all the way .
and i remembered tt after buke i was at a corner left alone ..
and soon became the only one for so called the teenager at my house :(
the rest of them went to mc donald , which is just under my block , eating ice cream ..
really felt lonely all the time ..
bella always turn to fie when she's around .
and only comes to me when fie's not around , it seems tt she replaces my place ..
today just jage nur khairina majdina most of the time ..
and now chatting and updating my blog .
it's surprising tt i'm quite close with someone , a boy , whom i just know few days ago .
and now we're msging each other mostly and sometimes otp ...
anw , gotta go now ,, gonna go geylang to buy baju for raye :DD
i'll update next time ..
Tuesday, July 13, 2010 ; 10:58 PM {!♥}
hello ,, so just found out tt alfian moved on with deena back .and i also moved on ,, no point loving someone tt love other person rite ?just happy for them , and hope they last long .and i heard tt erwyn got hurt ,, kesian btol .haish ,, going through a lot of things lately .and i'm fucking stupid enough to make fie hurt ..haish ,, fuck my life . i sometimes hate myself for being annoying and watever shit to anyone .i made everything worst for everyone .. and i hate myself for being like tt ...why must i be like this ??!!!whoever tt i've hurt , forgive me aye ?anw , not much to talk .keemy wants to send me back home and so on ...gotta go now !bye :DD
Tuesday, July 6, 2010 ; 3:27 AM {!♥}
hello ,, long time didn't update my blog ..
busy recently . hmm and it's sad tt my relationship wtih alfian didn't last long .
i miss him badly and i love him tooo much to forget about him ..hope he's happy but i wish i could have him back .my life's been changed since we've break up .eventhough when i'm with him , we fought and most of the time i make him angry ,, i still enjoy the times when i'm close to him .but now we've been apart . it's soo sad !!!!!i rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy want him back !!!!but i just couldn't cause i don't think he wants too .wish we were still together .. and wish he could hold on with my attitude .hmm ,, my life has been more complicated and boring without him ..so far not much to talk about .my pp8 low ,, so bored can't msg .so far didn't see alfian and strange tt i kept dreaming about him each and everyday !!but i enjoyed dreaming about him cause i can see his cute face !so tt's all for today .. seriously nothing to talk about .and MY LIFE'S DAMN BORINNNNNGGGGG !!!!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010 ; 3:15 AM {!♥}
hey ..
hmm ,, today , woke up at 11+ i think ..
after that ,, bath and everything . then lipat baju tu sume .
then jage my adek2 ,, haiyoo .
bising siak ,, tark bleyh diam mulut tu ..
and ape2 always carik me ,, about that of course idm .
but when some part happen ,, kecorable btol ..
and i got to know tt my nenek ade H1N1 !!
hmm ,, sedihh tark dpt jmpe my nenek pat hospital :(
then suddenly hadi message .
hadi : hello . kay nw , i want to settle . ape sngt kao tak happy nan ako ? bobaal uh . ako bagy time nak pkr . kao nk maki sumeh lai . incaa .
me : malas luh eh akuh nark layan jantan mcm kauh .
hadi : takder2 . kao daah bobaak blkng sumeh pasal ako , ape kao tak happy ? incaa uh . kao berani bobaal blkng kn ? skrnq dgn ako asal taknak bobaal .?
me : bnyk bende yg akuh tark happy ngan kauh . eh , sape tark berani luh eh bobal blakang kauh ?! depan kauh pun org berani luh eh . and akuh malas nark buang pp8 akuh kt laki yg tark guna mcm kauh ni . pegi mampos luh ngan kauh !!! so bye .
hadi : haahaa , lu buat lawak luh eh sister . ako takde pmpn laen , tkya nk fitnah . kao ade lakiey laen itu memang betol . ako kalao ade pmpan laen akuh tak jual badan ako pat lakiey laen sak . kao panggel ako sn of a bitch ? kao byk phey sundal . jgn step good uh wheiy . pmpan tak pmpan ble ble 613 familia uh . kao jangan nk judge org if kao taknk org judge kao kay bitch ? takecare sua .
me : gy mampos luh eh ngan ur fuckin attitude . kauh bnyk ckp luh . kauh uh yg takecare bitch !
hadi : kao gy mampos nan perangai sundal kao . kao tu world mao lebihh . kao takya takecare nan ako . wansuey !
me : PUKI MAK KAUH LUH EH ! kauh ngan perangai cb kauh tu bleyh bla luh bro .
hadi : puki mak kao balek undal phey bohsia . kaninabey chao cibaai . perangai dog . sial uh ni pariah .
me : eh pariah , sape sia bohsia ?! kauh tark tau akuh sape kn cb . kaninabey chao cibaai balek uh gigolo . sape sia perangai dog kauh uh sial ..
hadi : kao uh bodoh . bley bobaal bercare taknak kn ? kaninabey . gigolo ? kao tak tao jangan pakai siol . p check dictionary kao . bodoh siak nie pkimak .
me : eh sial uh ,, sape yg start dulu ni bodoh nye jantan ! kauh pun same bodoh luh bro , apa sia bercare ? kauh jgn nark step mane nye wansuey uh boy .
hadi : ako start off the msg betol2 , kao buat taek kao kemas uh wheiy . kao uh bodoh , takder otak nk pkr pe ? sial nye betiner . wansuay uh grl ! bey asl ?
me : eh cb , uat hal sendiri luh sial ! isap konek kauh sendiri luh puki .
hadi : kao buat uh sial . kao p jilat fukey kao sendiri uh wheiy . dah pmpn buat hal pmpan takmo bbl mcm jantan . sialan .
me : kauh ni jantan yg bodoh nark mampos ! kauh bleyh tark jadi jantan jgn act mcm betine ! puki luh kauh !
hadi : hahaha . ehh wheiy , tkmo ikot2 sentence . mcm stalker sak . bodoh sak , isap konek sendiri ? jilat puki kao luh bohsia . bodoh sak bobal tak masok akal , bobaal takpakai otak .
me : eh , sape sial yg ikot sentence , kauh luh bodoh .. eh , sial uh kauh tark tau sape yg type dulu peyh ? bodoh btol eh kauh ni . ingt kauh tindik telinge kauh fierce peyh ? eh , kauh lag mcm pondan uh . kauh ingt kauh tindik kauh besar sngt peyh ? gy mampos sudah . dulu kauh tark mcm gini luh sial !
hadi : hahaha . ape pondan ? kiwaak bobaal jangan Yp uh . favour . kao ckp pat ako , ako bwk member ako tindek brani kao ckp ? bodoh sak . prangai budak2 sak ,
me : eh , akuh nye pasal uh puki . akuh ckp psl kauh je kn ? ade akuh masok kn gang2 kauh skali , bodoh btol eh kauh , tark tau beza kn peyh sial ..
hadi : hahaha . eh bodoh , ako sorang je peyh tindek ? kao bodoh sak mcm mane mak kao ade pn ako tak tao .
me : eh , sial uh tark payah nark ungkit2 mak uh sial . eh , org laen tindek at least tark nmpk pondan mcm kauh .. kah jgn nark masok2 kn org laen uh sia . pengecut peyh . kannina luh cb ! gy maen ngan mak kauh luh sia . jgn act big fuck kt sini .
so on and so forth ,, malas nark type panjang2 lagi .. hmm ,, pengecut nark mampos btol si hadi ni eh .. sume nye nark ungkit2 org laen ,, lagi2 gang die .. ingt akuh tark brani nark lawan die balek peyh ? bleyh gy mampos sua .. dream on bitch ! akuh doa2 kauh mati cpt je luh eh . sedap je panggel org sundal .. akuh maki2 die pn ,, sebab die kurang ajar ngan akuh peyh .. untk die ? ade akuh uat salah peyh kat die ? sorry skit luh bro .. kauh da uat salah ,, mcm mane org tark fed up ngan maki2 kauh kn bodoh ! anw ,, stop here of talking about this bullshit guy and talk about other things .. meet nisa halfway when i was deeling with that fuckin guy .. hmm ,, then tell her everything and she read the messages .. urgh !! so pissed off .. then she also angry becauseof him ,, hahaas ,, org laen yg kene ,, org laen yg marah .. anw ,, thanks beb for being there for me :) hmm ,, then terserempak ngan acul n kechyk .. kechyk nmpk ,, but then suprisingly ,, he just say muke mcm kenal je .. it seems like he forget us or whatever .. then i throw my phone every where .. so angry cause he's crossing the limit ... but then when da brape kali campak pun maseh tark rosak ,, bnyk org kate tt phone sensitive ,, but it didn't turn out to be like tt to me . but just scratches . and screen tark rosak . hmm ,, unbelivable .. how hard i throw pun ,, tark akan rosak . then few minutes later ,, i think , acul ajak lepak pat pondok .. then ble da lepak ,, tark ckp . apa da , then ble da balek ,, text tt he miss me .. but not for me cause my heart is only reserved for *******<3>
anw , gotta go . bye !
Sunday, June 13, 2010 ; 1:25 AM {!♥}
hello ppl :Dhmm ,, today ,, had a great dream but was disturbed by a sudden call by my mum .but then i didn't pick up the call and check my phone to see the time .i was still sleepy though .when i was looking at my phone ,, bibik handed me the telephone .my mum talked to me and was angry .she told me to get home by 1pm if not don't call her my mum again ..so i cried for a while because of something else that she told me .so after i cried ,, rest for a while then wait for my cousin to get out from the toilet and bath ..get ready ,, then pack my stuffs ,, eat and then called home ,, but sadly , no one picked up .tried to call again and again .then gave up and called my dad to ask him if there is anybody at home .then he ask me to call my mum's phone ..called and my uncle picked up ,, blalblabla ,, i tell her that i'm going home now and she was still angry at me and shouted " if you want to go home then just go luh ,, and go home fast . "so i did what i was told ..on my way home ,, i think halfway ,, there was this indian guy ..quite plenty of seats behind and in front ,, but over all the places ,, he sat beside me .how irritating ! so have to seat beside him all the way until the destination .urgh ,, hate that guy .so went home , i've reached home just in time before it rained .salam my nenek and my mum ,, kissed their cheek and all ..then my mum asked me to erase my nail polish .but i was lazy to do that ..then sat for a while and watched tv ..then go to the kitchen to find what to eat ..then here i am ..hmm ,, but then yesterday after i update my blog ,, went to fie's blog and was kinda sad .cause it feels like i've hurt her feelings :(she thought negative things about me ,, which kinda hurt my feelings .do you think i would really steal or take away ayul from you ?do you really think that i have the intention to take ayul from you ?i would not do any bad things to you cause you're my favourite cousin from young .and i wouldn't have the heart to hurt you cause i know how it feels .and i'm sorry cause i've disturb your talk with ayul at the phone that time .i just treat ayul as my own brother and that's all .not more ,, not less ..we are getting to be close cause mayb it's because we wanna know each other well cause most of the time he will kinda see my face rite ?or mayb as wan say ,, he just wanna mayb he didn't laugh with you like last time is mayb because there is nothing to laugh about cause you seem to have no mood lately .i'm kinda worried about you cause when i look at you ,, can see that you are sad and it seems that something was bothering you .and the way you smile doesn't seem real like before .all the while you have been putting fake smile in front of me rite ?i'm truly sorry if i've ever make you sad .and do share your problems with me if you have any in the future aye ?i'll always be there for you to listen to your problems that you are facing and will try my best to help you .don't just keep it to yourself .
or don't just share your problems with wan only ,, cause i feel left out and it feels that i'm the cause of your problem and also feels like i'm just a burden to you :(
i feel that i've been causing you to have no mood and have problems ..
am i ? if i am then i'm sorry .
anw ,, that's all for today .
bye !
Saturday, June 12, 2010 ; 5:05 AM {!♥}
hello !
today ,, woke up at 12+ ,, hehee .
blablabla ,, gy makan tu sume . then makan .
after that pki com sekejap ...
than my akak sedare nye bapak , which is my pakcik ,, senang nark kate kn .
nark tgk wayang ,, at first me ngan my akak sedare nark tegok karate kid kul 3pm .
but sadly when we reached there ,, around kul 2.50+ i think , the tickets for 3pm sold out .
and the same goes for the next timing ,, then the other timing filling fast ,, and long way to go , so we just bought the ticket for the a team ..
then go eat at burger king ,
after eating , make our way to the cinema .. and we reached at the right timing .
but before going in ,, the adults go and take the popcorn while the teen go toilet . hehs
it wasn't that bad ,, after that go home .
on our way home ,, me and fie slept for a while .
then now , just chatting and checking my fb .
soo mendaaaaaaaaaak !!!
nothing to do ,, and tv tark de cite best2 ..
so bored ,, then my mum sick at home ..
kesian die kene jage my adek2 yg nakal kt rumah tu and nobody to help her .
lagi2 one of my adek , syabil ngan my nenek sakit ..
haish ,, ape luh naseb .
tomorrow gonna go back home and take care of my mum ,, my adek2 and my nenek .
mesti my pakcik will membebel bnyk just because i sleep at my cousin's house .
haiyoo !! so fustrated .
and my mum marah me too because of the same reason .
hmm ,, doa2 my mum will just forgive me and forget about it ..
so malas nark uat homework !
hmm ,, getting lazier to do some stuffs lately ..
then acul keep calling me ! irritaing peyh .
my pp8 da loow maseh nark call2 .
org reject pun the next day call lagi . how irritating is it ?
haaaaiyooo ..
kaays ,, nothing left to say i guess ?
so bubye !!!
