hello ppl :Dhmm ,, today ,, had a great dream but was disturbed by a sudden call by my mum .but then i didn't pick up the call and check my phone to see the time .i was still sleepy though .when i was looking at my phone ,, bibik handed me the telephone .my mum talked to me and was angry .she told me to get home by 1pm if not don't call her my mum again ..so i cried for a while because of something else that she told me .so after i cried ,, rest for a while then wait for my cousin to get out from the toilet and bath ..get ready ,, then pack my stuffs ,, eat and then called home ,, but sadly , no one picked up .tried to call again and again .then gave up and called my dad to ask him if there is anybody at home .then he ask me to call my mum's phone ..called and my uncle picked up ,, blalblabla ,, i tell her that i'm going home now and she was still angry at me and shouted " if you want to go home then just go luh ,, and go home fast . "so i did what i was told ..on my way home ,, i think halfway ,, there was this indian guy ..quite plenty of seats behind and in front ,, but over all the places ,, he sat beside me .how irritating ! so have to seat beside him all the way until the destination .urgh ,, hate that guy .so went home , i've reached home just in time before it rained .salam my nenek and my mum ,, kissed their cheek and all ..then my mum asked me to erase my nail polish .but i was lazy to do that ..then sat for a while and watched tv ..then go to the kitchen to find what to eat ..then here i am ..hmm ,, but then yesterday after i update my blog ,, went to fie's blog and was kinda sad .cause it feels like i've hurt her feelings :(she thought negative things about me ,, which kinda hurt my feelings .do you think i would really steal or take away ayul from you ?do you really think that i have the intention to take ayul from you ?i would not do any bad things to you cause you're my favourite cousin from young .and i wouldn't have the heart to hurt you cause i know how it feels .and i'm sorry cause i've disturb your talk with ayul at the phone that time .i just treat ayul as my own brother and that's all .not more ,, not less ..we are getting to be close cause mayb it's because we wanna know each other well cause most of the time he will kinda see my face rite ?or mayb as wan say ,, he just wanna mayb he didn't laugh with you like last time is mayb because there is nothing to laugh about cause you seem to have no mood lately .i'm kinda worried about you cause when i look at you ,, can see that you are sad and it seems that something was bothering you .and the way you smile doesn't seem real like before .all the while you have been putting fake smile in front of me rite ?i'm truly sorry if i've ever make you sad .and do share your problems with me if you have any in the future aye ?i'll always be there for you to listen to your problems that you are facing and will try my best to help you .don't just keep it to yourself .
or don't just share your problems with wan only ,, cause i feel left out and it feels that i'm the cause of your problem and also feels like i'm just a burden to you :(
i feel that i've been causing you to have no mood and have problems ..
am i ? if i am then i'm sorry .
anw ,, that's all for today .
bye !
